My heart hurts so bad that I can't breathe. I'm aching and pain is pounding through my body. I'm sad and I can't speak. I've never been in so much pain in my whole life. I don't care if I die. What have I done? Nothing can rectify this. I want to break everything I see. I want to take a hammer to my life and watch it shatter. I hate. I don't know me.