Drop It Like It's Hot

Ok, there are a lot of things that I want to say but don't really have the words to express them. I'm really in love with life right now, but only for the moment. It might fade in a half hour or so get it while it's hot. I just had therapy session, and like Samantha, I too love my therapist. He's amazing and while I realize that I'll only be with him a short while, I'm really glad that I've had the time with him that I've had.

I feel lost in a way, and that's ok. I feel torn and that's also ok. Being ok is confusing because when you put a stamp on something that it's "ok" then what you're feeling inside is more than ok, you are feeling great. I feel good right now because I've realized that it's ok to be torn and to feel like I want to have sex with a guy, it's ok. I mean I recognize it, I intillecutalize it and notice that it doesn't fit in with my life at the moment so I don't do it. But there's no need to feel guilt about it. I'm horny...cool. So what? Not a big deal. Life goes on and I eat a cheesburger and watch Ugly Betty and I'm fine.

I love my wife so much right now. This may sound awkward, but I don't know what I'd do if she wasn't hot. It's really fun being with her and spending time with her. She's my hero. She's my rock and my savior...forget about Jesus, my wife's the only pilot I need. Just kidding. I take that back. It was for humor only. But in all seriousness I love the Lord and I'm on his team. I recognize that there are more important things to worry about than who I'm having sex with, or what gender people are. If the Prophet says don't have sex outside of a hetero marriage then I'm fine with that, it's not easy, but hey...what is?