Oh Say What Is Truth
I have no idea how to make a claim on truth, or to tell how one can gain an unequivocal certainty of something. It's hard to even say what my feelings are from one minute to the next, let alone which view point God what wants the gay Mormons of the world to do.
I'm certain though that the Lord doesn't just shrug His shoulders and nod as we go with the flow of life.
The ongoing process of beginning a new path is becoming so life changing that in all effects, I am always going to be "starting something new". The Lord in all is wisdom is not just a powerful being of strength and love, but He is a Father, He is my Father, and yours. He loves to no end, and He is knowledgeable without flaws.
I am conscious of the idea that the Lord knows better than I know. I am aware that I have a much more limited scope of what it means to overcome, and what it means to love, and how one can be truly happy.
I feel an extreme amount of guilt for having these homosexual feelings. In all my searching for truth, I have found little pieces of certainties that make me feel like I am doing something worthwhile and important with the time that I have here on the earth.
I want progress and I want light. I want truth, and I want a confirmation of that truth. But in the end I somehow know that life isn't about getting everything I want. Life is about the journey, it's about trying for what's right, striving and living my life so that I can say that I did everything I could to bring myself closer to my Heavenly Father.